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#16 Results Day

As this important day I've been counting down to for ages draws to a close, I felt deep and reflective  of my day today. Results day is often a day people dread, me being no exception at all! I apologise to those people who I began to push away as I got anxious and snapped at whenever they told me to calm down. I disregarded people when they tried to remind me that these grades don't even matter in the future, they are merely a stepping stone for wherever you want to go next. In perspective, it's not like a job employer will ask you what you got in your A Levels, or GCSEs, at a job interview - even if so, that's very rare. While I say I blocked out them comments, I also realised I told other people the same textbook answers of "I'm sure your grades really weren't that bad" or "everything will fall into place in the end", etc etc. While they are typical reminders, I do also believe there is some truth in this. So it occurred to me: if I&

#15 Got a secret, can you keep it?

More recently, I've been joking about trust issues a lot. I use that as an excuse just to not tell people things, whether I actually trust someone or not. I will admit, however, that I did learn the importance of not telling everyone everything the hard way - being open with others used to be my forte. Through watching dramas such as Pretty Little Liars and Gossip Girl , it's made me wonder a lot about how many secrets my friends keep against me (things that involve me obviously, not just about other's business) and deeper, within my family - if any that is. We've been brought up to tell the truth and to especially be open to our parents. I guess it just scares me thinking that my parents could be hiding important details about my life to me and I could never know. And this is also the part when I remind myself that dramas tend not to be based on real stories and are exaggerated for entertainment. But what if? Whilst on the one hand I crave for a slightly more int