snippets of the way i overthink

Hey! Just a short and sweet post tonight. I know and can tell that most people are just reaching an end point now, especially here in London with my friends as we anticipate exam season and all the revision that leads up to it. It's quite easy (for me at least) to just make excuses for not trying at school or not helping with things around the house with simply "i'm tired". But i'm reminded that there's a purpose to each day and we shouldn't count the days but make the days count. Though you may be lacking motivation and all that, maybe go on youtube and watch Shia LaBeouf shouting at you to "JUST DO IT" or get some food to accompany you as you work. However your approach, remember life's short as it is so we should do something that makes us feel accomplished everyday. Perhaps starting with this hopefully inspiring post :) Now stop procrastinating and work! Starting's always the hardest part but we can all get through this! Hehe

I must say, it is sad to admit this. I had reached a point where I just wasn't sure if it became something I just did mindlessly as part of my weekly routine or whether it was one of those things where people tell you it so much you convince yourself they're right and it's true. I would say I've always been known as a music girl, from never shutting up as a child to being a consistent member in some form of choir from 6 years old to taking music at gcse and now a level. I've always had my moments with music like loving it 100% when I take part in musical performances but dreading my piano lessons every time. With uni in view, for about the last 3 months I was very certain I'm taking music as a degree but it was not until the last few weeks when I started doubting myself and wondering whether music indeed was something I was capable of doing, and more if it was something I was genuinely passionate about. But this all became clear tonight. My music family (m

'Everybody has those days' 'It's fine to feel like that' 'Your feelings don't define you' While those phrases are true, I believe them to be just another excuse for when we feel upset. We don't really have the need to feel upset. I'm very certain the positives in life outweigh the bads and, even more cliché than everything i've already said, there isn't enough time to waste for it to be worth being upset. But sadly, I have been feeling upset recently. I hate that sentence but it's true and I think it's just better for myself, and those around me, if I didn't lie. Perhaps a better way to phrase it would be that i'm feeling a bit lost. I no longer know where i'm definitely headed for future life, I don't feel like I have many 'constants' or 'securities' and more important to me, i'm not sure who my true friends are anymore and with who I belong.  Now I'm sorry if you were havin

My dearest friends, Indeed I've been slow at it but I think I have finally understood what it means to 'be the friend you want to have'. I have tried to live by that quote for so long as I believe it holds truth, but I want to live it out even more now. I'm sorry in advance for the deepness of this post but today, I was hurt. I love my bestfriend. I mean of course I would, one does not simply just call someone their  bestfriend . But also today, my bestfriend was hurt. I really wanted to know why and what it was that I could do to make her feel better but instead, neither did I get to know what the truth was nor the latter. And I guess, while I am happy and proud of her for doing this, it was also upsetting to see the fact that she went and told someone else what was wrong with her. I thought she trusts me. She has always told me not to bottle up my feelings and that she's always there for me and that she loves me. Everything she has told me is held true from

Hi friends! It's been rather a while since anything worthwhile happened on here but to be fair, were any of my previous posts even worthwhile to read at all? The past two years has brought on a lot for me and some of my greatest life changes took place; starting with the fact that I was single two years ago.. and am still single today yay! But for real, I was immensely close to deleting this blog after re-discovering it earlier today when my friend was trying to stalk me online. I was extremely close to deleting everything in my many previous posts (I'd written 5 for your information :)) that I had put so much time, love and effort into creating. However, if you know me, you'd know that I'm another of those people who just has an issue with trying to get rid of the past. You never know, maybe the internet won't even exist when i'm an old granny jamming to stormzy whilst eating my leftover pizza from the night before, but I'd rather keep my snippets of em