I must say, it is sad to admit this. I had reached a point where I just wasn't sure if it became something I just did mindlessly as part of my weekly routine or whether it was one of those things where people tell you it so much you convince yourself they're right and it's true.
I would say I've always been known as a music girl, from never shutting up as a child to being a consistent member in some form of choir from 6 years old to taking music at gcse and now a level. I've always had my moments with music like loving it 100% when I take part in musical performances but dreading my piano lessons every time.
With uni in view, for about the last 3 months I was very certain I'm taking music as a degree but it was not until the last few weeks when I started doubting myself and wondering whether music indeed was something I was capable of doing, and more if it was something I was genuinely passionate about. But this all became clear tonight.
My music family (my a level music class) have always been supportive but especially tonight. I tried so many new things like playing duets on the piano and picking up the violin again and playing with an orchestra (having not touched my violin properly in almost 5 years) and the greatest achievement being conducting an orchestra! Ask any one of them and you'd understand how stressed out I was but having done all this, and realising how much I enjoyed it and wanted to invest my time in music, I think it's safe to say that my heart really is with music.
Finally to wind up this evening, some may call me a goody two shoes but I even stayed and offered to help tidy up the hall afterwards cos that's how much I don't want to be separated from music!
Thanks for everyone's support whether you're one of my music fans or a stranger,
Haynam X
I would say I've always been known as a music girl, from never shutting up as a child to being a consistent member in some form of choir from 6 years old to taking music at gcse and now a level. I've always had my moments with music like loving it 100% when I take part in musical performances but dreading my piano lessons every time.
With uni in view, for about the last 3 months I was very certain I'm taking music as a degree but it was not until the last few weeks when I started doubting myself and wondering whether music indeed was something I was capable of doing, and more if it was something I was genuinely passionate about. But this all became clear tonight.
My music family (my a level music class) have always been supportive but especially tonight. I tried so many new things like playing duets on the piano and picking up the violin again and playing with an orchestra (having not touched my violin properly in almost 5 years) and the greatest achievement being conducting an orchestra! Ask any one of them and you'd understand how stressed out I was but having done all this, and realising how much I enjoyed it and wanted to invest my time in music, I think it's safe to say that my heart really is with music.
Finally to wind up this evening, some may call me a goody two shoes but I even stayed and offered to help tidy up the hall afterwards cos that's how much I don't want to be separated from music!
Thanks for everyone's support whether you're one of my music fans or a stranger,
Haynam X